Poised

Ready? Set? Go! But....

I will do [fill in the blank] when [fill in the blank]. Way too often there is a reason we can find and name for why we aren't doing something, but is there really? The question begs asking - are we poised for action and not taking it because we are waiting for some illusory perfection to apply itself to our lives? Or are we holding back because it's what we know, because we are afraid of what might happen or what might change?

Because years go by. Seriously - you want to take that course, learn that dance, take that one vacation, go do that amazingly challenging thing you have always wanted to do and years go by and you can still find yourself wanting to do that thing. And there is something poised but not alive in that, something wanting and yearning but not doing and living. And I think the fear of death is so tied into this. When thoughts of death get scary it's because there are those questions - have I done what I really wanted to do? Have I done everything I could do? Have I made my mark upon the world?

No one wants to go through that deathbed experience only to get "No" as the answer to those questions, but being poised is not enough. We have to actually DO the things we dream about doing, yearn to do, know in our hearts we have to do to feel whole and happy and like we have done what we came here to do.

I urge you to look at the things in your life, and more likely these are things in your mind, rather than in your life, and look at what you have been wanting to do - for years. Find whatever it is that is holding you back, usually a seed of fear, and release it. Find the strength within to let go of whatever is holding you back and do whatever it is that will fill you with joy, that will fill you with gratitude, that will fulfill you in ways day to day life never will.

Because years go by. Seriously. And that's something you can change.



Blessings and love.
- Darshan








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